To be completely honest, I love the idea of being in a serious relationship, but it scares me so much. It scares me to think that I could fall in love with the wrong person. I’m scared to know that things could not work out perfectly like a movie. I feel like it’s so expected of me to find the right guy in high school since my parents started dating when they were both younger than I am right now, and my sister and her boyfriend have been together since she was my age too. I wouldn’t ever want to force myself to like someone, or rush into a relationship before I’m ready because I’m living too much in the moment… But it’s happened so many times that now I can’t even determine when I’m actually starting to have feelings for someone, or when it’s just my head telling my heart to believe these false feelings and ideas and hopefully get things right.
I just wish that one person would come into my life that I’d be absolutely sure about.